Thursday, July 06, 2006

Summer Break!

Boy... the girls are getting really anxious to do something during the day. I've had them cut down their 'friends list' on myspace to a max of 30 people. This has, apparently, severely cut into their social life. But they'll get over it. They instant messaged me at work this morning to ask if they could go over their friend, Amanda's house. I asked if her mom was going to be home... and I got "never-mind" followed by her abruptly logging off. Can you have attitude in an instant message?? Yeah... I think so! I like this girl Amanda -- sort of. She failed last year and has to repeat the 8th grade, she missed dozens of days from school and I don't understand why, and she's the one who the girls were with when they decided to walk home from the mall that one time. Also, whenever the girls go to her house (either to 'meet her half way' or to just go over and hang out) they come back much later than they were supposed to. I think the girls could potentially get into trouble with her... she's 'on the fence' as far as being a good/bad girl. I'm hoping we are a good influence on her. She's over the house so often that we give her chores to do when she's here. And - no - I'm not kidding. **grin**

I got my soundtrack for my audition for the Praise Team at church. I'm listening to it over and over, just trying to learn it so that - even though I'm nervous as heck - I can't mess it up. Keep me in your prayers on that one, please. Oh, but not prayers that I necessarily 'make it' because I know God already has a plan. But rather, prayers that I don't have a nervous breakdown in the meantime. LOL

Oh lordy... the migraine is back today... back with a vengeance. It could be that my boss dropped some Starburst on my desk this afternoon... and I'm just not used to that mid-day sugar burst. I called the doctors office and left another message. This time maybe they'll put me back on the preventative stuff so that I can stop 'em before they start. Wouldn't that be great??!! UGG... they just called. They are concerned that the headaches have been going on every day, even with the meds -- so she wants to see me and schedule an MRI to rule out other problems. This is good I know... but getting off work when you are the only employee is not so easy. I'm scheduled to see her tomorrow afternoon again to see them. God I hate going to the doctors. :o(

So... what more can I tell you about the kids?? I know - their mom! Couple things here... Julie starts working tomorrow... and I just can't believe she's finally going to go work. I talked to her online today and - okay, I just know you are not going to believe me on this one and so I went to confirm what her instant message said -- she was just getting UP at 2:55 this afternoon. Okay, and I'm going to say something here not nice... but I just can't help myself... she types like a kid still in elementary school. You know, back when as long as what you wrote looked like it sounded and you didn't have to worry about spelling all that much. Here is a snipt of her conversation to me: "actualy was up eirler and went and layd back down". We work on this kind of thing with her kids ALL the time. The fact that Julie is exactly the same way just tells me that if/when they go back home, they are going to begin to talk and write the same way again. Here is a snipit from one of the kids' writing: "kant waiit to go baq to skool". Yeah, I can't wait for you to go back to school either... and learn how to WRITE! Oh my goodness... drives me insane!

More on Julie... she broke up with the white guy she was dating. He was 'getting too serious' for her. I was just re-reading something she wrote to me when she was first dating him... she said she was going to 'drop all the others and date him exclusively'. Drop all the others. Not that she's been dating a guy or maybe two and she's going to break up with them... she's going to drop all the others. It's simply amazing to me that she's able to get all of these men. It boggles my mind. Not just because of the weight, but more-so because of the mental illnesses. I mean, yes she's a sex addict and I can understand why guys dig that... but add to that all the other things as well... and I just.... don't get it.

Also... this month I made Julie start paying her own mortgage as of this month. I'm up to my eyeballs with my own stuff, and the last thing I need to worry about is if her mortgage is paid.

Oh my gosh... Amanda is on the phone with me. Crying. She's been trying to go back to college. She took 2 semesters of college after high school under the Bright Future Scholarship... but she didn't get any credit hours for her classes (either F's or U's). She's now been off for a total of 4 semesters, and apparently that means that the stuff she just applied for is no good. She needs to re-apply next semester (for the summer). Oh, AND -- the scholarships she applied for asked for copies of our tax returns from last year... you know... when we didn't have 3 extra kids and both Chris and I were making lots of money. They told her that they expected Chris and I to pay $12,000 of her tuition. WHAT??? Are they flipping kidding me?????? There is simply no way this can possibly happen. She's crying because she feels like all hope is lost... she has no car, no home (lives with boyfriend), and just got a job yesterday at Chili's. I was starting to feel so bad for her, but then remembered... she hasn't worked since October 2005. Well, she had the job at Cutco selling knives, but that's all commission and she needed a vehicle for it. But she never made real money working for them. I told her that it was very hard to 'see the light' when she's so deep in a hole. I told her that I thought she needed to get out there and work like crazy and save every penny. Then re-assess her choices... as there will be more choices when she's out of the hole. It's just so hard... so hard when I see her making obvious choices that I think are mistakes. I mention them to her, but I appear to be butting into her business. Things like... turning down an interview for a City of Tampa job, going over to Cocoa Beach for the day, to Orlando for the weekend (while jobless). I know she's choosing to go to the movies and not pay her storage or credit card bill. And I know these are her choices to make. But still.... it breaks my heart. We've told her she can move in with us... but she has to get a job and help pay a little for the room. Right now, she'd rather stay with her boyfriend who is amazingly good to her (driving her wherever she needs to go and paying for a lot of things for her). I want to help her... but more than that... I want her to help herself.

Okay... my head is killing me here and I've got to run.

Pray for the kids - Kayla, Justin, Kayte and Jonathan. And say a special prayer for Amanda. I'd love it for her to come to church, get a job, go to college and get her life straightened out. Think big... pray for all of that, okay??

Never underestimate the power of prayer....

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