Tina's Daily Blog: Don't Forget The Baby

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Don't Forget The Baby

So.... let me tell you about the mall story with the girls. Friday night Kayte's friend Marissa and her mom take Katie to the mall. They ask if they can stay and see an early movie. I tell them yes, but they call back later and say they want to go to a later movie and wouldn't be home until after 1 am. Now... long story short, this Marissa is a good girl. Her mom takes her to the mall every other weekend and allows her to take one friend with her, as long as Marissa's grades are good. Also, the mom stays WITH the kids, which is cool. Long story short, they ended up coming home about 11:30 as they decided not to see the movie because it was going to be so late. Instead they went to dinner at Outback together.

Saturday morning, first thing, Kayte asks if she can go to the mall with Marissa again - this time her mom said Kayla can come as well. I say yes, that's fine with me. I go to a Tenor section rehearsal and get done about 2... talk to Katie, not gone to the mall yet. I go to see Jonathan perform about 4 and talk to Kayte and still, not gone to the mall. I get home from all my running around about 6 and still... no mall yet. At 8 pm I tell Kayte that it's too late to go to the mall (as she tells me Marissa is now on her way to come pick her up) - because the mall closes at 9 pm. She says........ uhhhhh..... weeeeeeeellllllll.... we actually wanted to go to the movies! Now... that is a different story. Mall means you WILL be home by 9:30 at the latest. Movies could be 2 or 3 am depending on the movie. We had a long talk with Kayte about this as I had a feeling that she knew darn right well that they were going to the movies NOT the mall, even though she claimed not to know repeatedly. They tell me that they are going to go to a 9:45 movie which will put them home about midnight. Reluctantly, and after much discussion, I told them they could go, but that I wanted to talk to Marissa's mom.

When Marissa's mom pulled up (she and her husband in the car) I told her about what had happened. I told her that I did not like surprises.... and that Kayte, all day long, had been talking about going to the mall, but at 8 pm I find out it's actually a movie! She tells me that - when they decided Friday night not to see the movie, they said that they would go on Saturday night instead. So.... she knew about it last night! I tell Kayte that - in the future, if she wanted to go to the mall and she was leaving any time after 7 pm the answer would now and forever be NO. Further, I told her that if she EVER said she wanted to go to the mall and instead 'changed her mind' and wanted to see a movie, that answer would always and forever be "no". I told her point blank that if she wanted to go to the movies, she should ask me if she could go to the movies!

About 15 minutes after they left, they get to the movie theatre and decide that they would rather see a movie that started at around 10:45 instead. Marissa's mom called the house and talked to Chris to ask if it was okay to see that one instead. Chris told her absolutely no. That she could see an earlier movie or she could come home. We had church in the morning and had no intention of letting the girls stay out after 1am. Sheesh...............

The thing here that I clearly understand is this: the girls know if they had asked me on Saturday morning or early afternoon if they could go see a movie that started at 9:45 or so... I would have told them to go see one earlier! I fully believe that they hid all of this for just that reason. And I HATE being played like that.

So.......... still thinking about the stories I want to share with you on funny things that have happened to us over the years. As Halloween draws near, I think I'll share our funniest Halloween memory.

Jonathan was maybe 3 or 4 years old, so this was maybe 10 years ago. We were living in a house down in South Tampa and we really got into Halloween; Decorations galore and even Chris and I dressed up to have some fun. We didn't have a garage, instead we had a carport.

You know how Chris feels about RATS by now, so of course I had to go out and buy the biggest nastiest rat I could possibly find. It was rubber but oh so real looking. Chris had decided if he were going to incorporate this rat into our Halloween deocrations, he'd have some fun with it. Jonathan had a pretty powerful little remote-control car that was a little smaller than this rat. Chris cut a hole in the gut of this rat and glued the rat onto the car. We hid the rat under the car parked in the carport and as people would come to the door, Chris would use the remote control to have the rat dart out from under the car, chase and scare the bajeezus out of all the kiddos. Because it was remote control, we could use it to literally chase people as if a real rat would. Yeah, we are kinda that twisted at the time. **chuckles**

Well, this one woman came up the driveway and headed to our door with a stroller. In the stroller she had this little baby - way too young for candy so I imagine the candy was for mom. Pushing the stroller..... smiling.... enter the rat. The rat speeds out from under the car... at first it's hard to tell exactly what ran out from under the car because it's dark there, you just see a dark shadow... a cat maybe... a raccoon? But then it gets closer and the rat's body is illuminated from the glow of the blacklight on the front porch. The rat is charging at her.......... what does mom do?

She leaves that baby...... in the stroller......... and BOOKS out of our yard. Screaming. Hands in the air. Yelling as she's running "Help me Jesus. Lord Jesus. God. Help me. Help me Jesus!" Add to that a black woman's attitude and a slight country draw.... and I think you get the picture. Chris is laughing hysterically and goes to console the woman, chasing her down the street. I run out of the house to attend to the baby left - deserted - in our front yard.

Once we got her calmed down, she admitted that it was the best scare she'd ever had on Halloween.

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Here is a letter I sent to Dr. Phil which really sums everything up:
I am married to my high-school sweetheart (20 years this August), with two wonderful children (Amanda who is 20 and Jonathan who is 13). I have two sisters, both younger – I call them “my good sister” and “my bad sister”. My good sister is – well, good! Normal in every way. The bad one, Julie, has been in trouble since she was a kid. As a baby she cried all of the time. As a teenager she was in trouble all of the time. At the age of 14 or so I remember that she had run away from home to live with a grown man in Atlanta. This was one of many run a ways. As a teenager, she provided sexual favors to boys in school, as well as teachers. As a young adult she was arrested for prostitution. She’s done drugs ranging from marijuana to crack. She was diagnosed early on as bi-polar with personality disorder. She’s also a serious cutter to the point where she no longer hid the cuts. She’s cut things like “Ronald Cecchinni” into her arm… and “Fuck you Dr. XXX” on her stomach, in large letters. Julie is also a diagnosed sex-addict. She’s also recently (in the past year) begun ‘huffing’. (I honestly believe that this huffing has caused some permanent damage) She is currently 36yo.
Julie lost her husband Ron a year and a half ago as a result of Leukemia and Kidney Disease which the military attributed to his serving in the Gulf War. He left behind three children – Kayla who is now 15, Justin who is now 14 and Kayte who is now 13. Even when Julie was married, her psychiatric problems persisted. She has been hospitalized literally hundreds of times over the years. However, when her husband was alive, he would take care of the kids when Julie was mentally out of control. After Ron died, Julie lost control of the kids and her life. She began to spiral out of control, having pot parties at her home (to the point where the kids said a door would open and a cloud of smoke would come bellowing out of the room), smoking weed with her own kids, having sex all over the house with different men all the time, allowing young men (19 yo) to sleep over with her oldest daughter (only 14 at the time), and allowing Gang members to live in her home (she said she felt ‘safe’ with them there). In addition, she was attempting suicide daily, overdosing on medications hoping to not wake up the next morning. Mind you all of this while she was seeing her Psychologist every week and Psychiatrist once a month. Both of these Doctors knew what was going on at home, neither of them reported it to the proper authorities. I have even been told by one of them that he was told, by Julie, that she ‘heard voices telling her to hurt the children’ but that she was proud that she could ignore the voices. Still, these Doctors reported nothing.
I should add here that it was at some point in this period of time in Julie’s life when her children began suicide watches over their mom… each one taking turns to sit in a room with her at all hours (night and day) because their mom was less-likely to hurt herself while they were here. However, it didn’t always work – Julie constantly took pills in front of them trying to either dope herself up or overdose, and she would even cut herself in front of the kids.
Finally one day, she woke up furious that her last suicide attempt didn’t work. She got violent with her oldest daughter, police were called, and finally DCF was called. (I would like to add that we (other family members) had called DCF in the past to report things, but some of the cases were ‘unfounded’ and one other time the fled the state knowing CF only had jurisdiction in Florida.) DCF removed the children from the home in November 2005 and I gained custody of the Children shortly thereafter.
There are lots of things I could add here about my sister, DCF, and the horrible Foster Care or Custodial Care program we are involved with. However, that is not my main reason for writing to you.
Kayte, the youngest, seems to be adjusting pretty well. She has a tendency to trivialize what her mom has done and the seriousness of it, but I think that is normal given that it is her mom. Kayte was in counseling, but she feels it’s ‘a waste of time’.
Justin, the middle child, is okay. As a young boy I'm told he was a terror. He used to hit his mother and at one point (only 6yo) tried to jump off a building to kill himself. Since then, his anger has turned in to an endless smothering of love and caring. He does everything for his mom… from getting her whatever she needs to rubbing her feet and back. Justin has seen a psychiatrist since moving in with me who felt that his issues were brought on by trauma. It was also at that visit with the psychiatrist that he confided in myself and the Doctor that he had suicidal thoughts often while living at home with his mom in her ‘state of being’ after his dad died. However, since he moved in with me he has done so much better (and continues to improve daily) that she didn’t feel he even needed counseling at this time. He would, however, need counseling before he was reunited with his mom.
Kayla, the oldest, has serious issues. She is also currently in counseling but feels that it is ‘a waste of time’. Kayla has always lied and stolen things. Family members feel sorry for her because you can tell that she doesn’t really mean any ill will by it, but it’s been ‘the way she is’ for a very long time. By far her biggest problems are lying and her need for approval by men (young and old).
Since the kids have moved in with us, my husband and I have set up rules. The kids already had myspace accounts, so we set ground rules for it. 1) We needed the login names and passwords. 2) Profiles must be set to private. 3) The only people they were allowed to have on their friends list was people that they actually knew. When Kayla’s list climbed over 300, and she was found to have inappropriate conversations (wanting to sneak out and ‘hook up’ with young men), we made everyone cut their list down to 30 friends, which included myself. 4) All vulgar language and inappropriate photos would come off immediately and would be monitored by myself at any given time. At times, they try to put up ‘sexy’ pictures which immediately need to come down.
However recently I have found that she has multiple website things going on in an attempt to pick up young men. I'll outline a few here so that you understand the gravity of the situation: 1) I found her 'normal' myspace account set to 'public view'. She has over 11,000 profile views(meaning people looking at her pictures and wanting to know more about her). I had reset it to private many times, but she keeps going back and resetting it to public. 2) I have found another myspace account which she went by the name 'Shannon' and used it to pick up young men, tease them, then later tell them that she was 'taken' but refer them to her 'cousin, Kayla'. She'd then give them all of Kayla's information. Of course thiswas also set to public. 3) I have found another social network website that was like myspace in which she had ONLY men (mostly from other states) as her 'friends' whom she corresponded with. The emails back and forth basically said the same thing as all of the others... more on that in #4 - only these were guys that not only did she not know, but they were not even in the area! 4) All accounts that I have found had basically the same thing... her emailing guys wanting to know if she was pretty, if they wanted to 'hook up', talking about going to their 'crib' or meeting up with them somewhere, and constantly seeking approval and affirmation from these guys.
I believe she gets this from her mom. And the sad thing is, if you met her, you would love her. She is truly a GREAT kid… but she has serious issues. I’ve described to you Julie’s behavior and Kayla’s seems to be the same way. Neither can make decisions on their own that are ‘the right thing to do’, and both lack the understanding of simple values, morals and ethics. I could go into so many examples. How do I describe the utterly amazing difference between Julie’s parenting style and my own?
I know... Both Julie and I have myspace accounts set up to ‘monitor’ the kids. To illustrate the difference between Julie and myself, here is something that Julie and I both put on our myspace accounts. You are supposed to put something 'about yourself' by your picture. Here is mine: "I'm 38 years old. I have two amazing kids, Amanda who is 20 and Jonathan who is 13. I have great husband, Chris. I love to sing - and have been singing in Toast of Tampa Show Chorus for 10 years. I'm raising my nieces and nephew (12, 13 and 14). I love God and my family."And here is Julie's: "I am who I am and if you dont like me for me........FUCK YOU........ Plus if you dont like me for me....... Im gunna tell my kids and there gunna kick yer ass!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Here’s the other dilemma we are having; the two girls are in counseling that is costing me $25 EACH in co-payments every time they go. The State of Florida provides NO financial support to me as a relative caregiver, other than providing the three kids with Medicaid. They received small SSI checks because of their dad’s death, but it barely covers the food they consume. The DCF worker, having spoke with the girls and being told that therapy is ‘a waste of time’, has referred me to a clinic that DCF uses for cases such as this to seek mental care for Kayla (aswell as the others). However, the kids have TriCare as their primary insurance because their dad died from Military causes. TriCare requires the co-payment, regardless of the Medicaid secondary. Having said that, please understand that I worked in referrals in a primary care physician’s office for 16 years… I totally ‘get’ what is required for primary and secondary insurances and all the red tape. But because of the uniqueness of this situation, the kids are suffering!
I should also point out here that I have the kids for an indefinite period of time. Right now Julie is doing things that she has been told to do to get the kids back. However, she is still awaiting a court ordered detailed Psychiatric exam to determine if she can EVER parent again. Even if that Psychiatrist feels she can parent again, she’ll most likely need to be ‘clean’ and ‘episode-free’ for 6 months to a year minimum. In addition, Julie is only allowed supervised visits and one phone call a day. This came about because of her inappropriate behavior when she was with the kids and because when she was allowed to call any time she’d call 10 + times a day.
The other problem with Julie ever getting her children back is that… she doesn’t understand what she did wrong. She parents as if she were 15-years old herself. If anyone has ever done something bad and been able to ‘keep’ their kids, she sees no reason she can’t do it. She brought her daughter at the age of 13 in for a HUGE tattoo on the small of her back. It’s Tigger flipping ‘the bird’ with her gang name under it. She was also planning on getting a large tattoo on her 12yo before the kids were taken. Again, she sees nothing wrong with any of her past behavior.
So, you see, I could have these children for the rest of their teenage years. I honestly don’t know where to turn to get them the help they need.
I feel as if I am in a psychiatric nightmare and I just can’t wake up. Eight months ago I was at home, my biggest ‘kid worry’ was if my son was going to get good grades on his report card. Now I find myself in a crux worried about whether or not the lessons I teach them, this late in their young life, are going to be enough to turn these kids around and help them to be productive adults in the near future.

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Don't Forget The Baby

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